The person I admire the most was my grandmother.� Of course�she is no longer living, but she had the most admirable qualities of anyone I have known.� I wish to be like her someday.�
She was a very fair person.� She had 4 children and a bagillion and a half grandkids and great grandkids.� We were all treated equal.�� At Christmas time, we all got the same gifts.�� There was no favoritism or behavior of such.
She was a very honest person.� You asked her what she thought and she told you.�
She never made you feel as if you were less of a person even if she disagreed with you.� She let you have your own thoughts and feelings, but loved you the same no matter what.
She included everyone.� She always had an extra plate at meal times for a stranger or an extra friend.�� She always had a gift for an unexpected guest at Christmas time.�
She was kind and generous, honest and fair.�
I would like to think that I have some of those qualities, but I will always strive to be just like her.�
So, six years ago, on this day, I married a guy that I fell in love with. We moved to Hawaii and decided to build a life together (at least I thought that's what we wanted).
Thinking about it right now, it's so odd the way I buried almost each and every memory of that horrible relationship. For a naive 24-yr-old that's far away from home life in Honolulu can be very scary. But I coped.
Four years into the marriage I accounted for all the warning signs, including the load of John's debt, and my health. Then I decided to rescue me and move on.
Move on I did. While divorce paperwork was on the back burner. During this time I met many a wonderful young military lad. There was this one particular one that I couldn't get rid of. He was always around, always dishing advise, always there... when I needed a friend.
I'd like to think he took a liking to me from day 1 that we met (which was February 07). Six months or so later, he began sharing with me of his intentions to buy a place and that he wanted me to move in with him. I think he didn't know what he was signing up for. I didn't either.
The divorce was finalized in Jan of 08. And I said yes to moving in with him. We've been dating for about 8 months now. We did survive a strong wind of issues, including my divorce and herpes, and we continue to survive smaller issues.
I believe my secrecy stemming from a humongous lack of confidence (a result of divorce-trauma) has caused my boyfriend (it took me a while to get used to referring to him as my boyfriend) to be wary of me.
And as much as he loves me, and I do love him back and more, I'm not sure about us. We're the oddest and at the same time the happiest couple I know. I'd be devastated if we broke up. I know he'd feel the same way. But chances are we'd just pick up and move on, and stay in touch with each other. Yep! We're never not every going to be best friends. And I pray, I do so very earnestly and sincerely pray that I can make all this man's wishes and dreams come true. Because he has been so good to me, eventhough I've not been completely honest with him.
This year our parents will get involved with this relationship. And soon, others that we individually know and care about. He's supposedly set to leave the islands in June of 2010 (2 years from now). So that's about how much time we have to make a decision. So let's see...
"There is only one success - to be able to spend your life in your own way." - Christopher Morley“唯有能夠依照您本人的意願活著，才算真正的成功。”
“The man who goes the farthest is generally the one who is willing to do and dare. The sure-thing boat never gets from shore.” – Dale Carnegie
追求進步的人，不但願意幹事，而且敢作敢為；終歸有日會如願以償．
"To have a right to do a thing is not at all the same as to be right in doing it." - GK Chesterton� 有權使用者，未必就是正確行使權力者．
l��������� One of the perks of being your own boss is that you can make your own hours and work WHEREVER you want to.
l��������� 凡掙扎自立門戶的人，都為了獲得自己的空間．
I had a phone interview at 8:35 am appt with social security. Iasted over two hours. What a interview.
My surgars are so low and I have had so much oj�that I�cant eat because I have had to drink so much oj.
Off to sleep soon...I hope... Good night!�Patch's is sleeping right next to me...guess he's trying to tel lme something. lol....
TODAY WAS NICE- DAD AND I WENT AND BUMMED AOUND. THEN WE WENT TO EAT SOME� CHINSE.� it was nice. We went to BEST BUY AND I GOT MY TABS VIDEO.
WE WENT TO THE BASS PRO SHOP. THEN WE WENT BACK TO DADS. I oreded the wrong thing with chinese and got sick when I ate it.
I watched the fireworks on tv from New York. Very nice!!
I took my sleep meds and I am sooooooooooo out of it. SO i will close with this. I need to look for my braclet...prob would be best that I look for it tomorrow.� So night night!
Happy July 4th, 2008!!!
just waiting and waiting i hate to wait im very very nrveous� and impatient� what is the answer for it?well i been trying to keep busy reading getting things done and waiting and waitng and waiting,making decisions and waiting some� more,it seems like time is slowing to a crawl right now, so much is going on in my life,and it seems so little is right now.it is the 4th of july,oh yeah,why didnt the brittish win? sorry im on another team i guess,so whats going on in your world? any ideas to do while i wait? hope you r night is good.byeee
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彩霞衬着的金茂和环贸
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�� 昨天下午一场大雨过后，空气格外透明，我偶然向窗外望出去，一条金黄和火红相间的雨后彩霞衬着金茂大厦和刚落成不久的环球贸易中心摩天楼，那一刻这两座浦东地标建筑一反往日古板的一主一仆男性形象，变身裹着的鲜艳浴巾的两个刚刚出浴的浴女。我和敦敦立马弹到窗前喀嚓了几张陈宅独有的‘大厦婀娜view’。
� 两年来我一直想画这两座楼，但总是找不着感觉，尽管这绝色灿烂前后大约只有几分钟的功夫，突然让我抓到了感觉。大厦的生命就是在日复一日的朝霞的映照，正午的阳光和落日的余晖中会显露大致相同又微妙不同之内涵。不知在大厦下整日埋头推水泥板的民工们能否在蹲着吃完饭盒后，拖着疲惫的双腿回宿舍的路上，抬头看到他们用生命浇筑的大厦是何等的有情有意，光彩照人。
soul will lonely without friends
heart will die without creed
yesterday was memorialize
last night was dream
today is reality
start ur days with smileeeeeeee
jesus christ does� indeed answer prayers and is in the process of a miriacle in my life,he has done many in years past,my boyfirend is at home recovering and when i seen him on cam i was so overjoyed to see him.he looks so good for what he has gone through,he looks good anyway,i feel so lucky and so blessed,we have been undergoing a test of faith and a trial by fire,god is bringing us through it ,it is his doing and all i can do is praise and thank jesus christ for standing by us and provideing a chance fo r us to be together soon and enjoy life together soon,my boyfriend is worth the wait and worth anythig i have to endure and im so looking forward to being with him and it will happen by the grace of the living god it will happen,ow it is just time,paitence,faith,hope trust and waiting, everything is in place for this to happen everything, and i can hardly stand the wait
apitamac 58, Female, Indiana, USA - 8 entries
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